I’m not sure how this all started. All I know is, it has.
You are gay, I am not, but I might as well be. You have a gay child, I do not, but who knows what could be?
A pastor who was once lost in anti-gay’s ignorance and delusion, now a pastor whose fight is to bring Light to the confusion.
Your story is my story, and my story, your story. Not exactly, but yet… exactly. A glue that cannot be unglued from what God has knit together. You, in my heart, and my heart, with you… together.
Not out of some benevolence, as if you were some kind of mission. But out of pissed-off objection, to truths that have seen their evil omission. This is a violent world. And you, a prime recipient. Blind spots here, ignorance there. Religion, both the product and the primary cause. You are a beautiful creation of the Creator, and the victim of a darkness that only Truth can give pause.
A terrible, disgusting injustice has been done. You have been lied to, flat out, and lies are told about you. Poisons of the Poisoner, hate from the Hater, deceptions of the Deceiver. Proof texts, and cons from the removal of context, all from the Accuser. The waterfall of evil’s river, holding you under with shame. It’s time for the captive to be set free, to awaken to your true Name.
There is nothing to be changed, not a problem to be solved, nor a choice to regret. No shame from which to hide, or a mistake for which to apologize. Nothing to cure, run from, remove, discipline, or overcome. You are not a blemish solved by Grace or some sympathetic exception, but a divine creation, no less than all the others… God’s intention.
Tolerance is reserved for things that annoy us, acceptance reserved for that which we deem abnormal. Run from it, all of it, a spiritual veil to an empty offering. Beauty and blessing are things to be desired. You deserve to be desired. And I… desire you.
From the affection of the Father, the pride of His gleam, His favor poured over… I desire you.
I want to curse dark skies with you, wrestle out depression’s claws with you. I want to battle haunts in your head, stomach rejection’s vomit with you. I want to stand in “straight” lines, dine at homophobic tables with you. I want to walk on broken family glass with you, pull back the knife in your hands with you.
I want to catch fading breaths with you, beat ignorance’s chest with you. I want to dance in parades with you, laugh to the point of peeing with you. I want to rejoice at the dawn of a new day, celebrate the God-affirmation of being gay.
If you didn’t have before, you do now.
A warrior defending your side, a wing under which you can reside. A protector proclaiming your innocence, an ear that hears with no pretense. A mutual tear crying, a mutual heart sighing…
You have never been alone. You are not alone. Not ever before, not now.
Let’s take this hill together, run the race together. Until strength we have no more. Let’s raise our glasses, stand up to the masses, “greater is He that is in us, more are they in heaven that are with us.”
Never giving up, never giving in. We will not stop, we will not retreat, we will not be silent
No chance, no way, not ever.
This is our day.
This is our time.
This is our life.
This is our truth!
If you didn’t have a pastor, you do now. Never received a love letter from a pastor, you have now.
It’s about damn time.
You deserve to be desired, and I… desire you.
CHRIS KRATZER is a Jesus guy, husband, father, pastor, author, and speaker. His focus is communicating the message of the Gospel of Grace and the beauty of Jesus particularly as it relates to life, culture, and church.
Chris is the author of two books, The Undiscovered You, and Rise Above: Defying the Gravity of Adversity — both of which are available as free ebooks from his website. He lives in Shelby, North Carolina, and blogs at ChrisKratzer.com.