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Me and Papa: Thinking About God’s Feminine Side

Me and Papa: Thinking About God’s Feminine Side

May 22, 2014

Sometimes I refer to God as Papa, and if you’ve ever read William Paul Young’s The Shack then you already know what image this title brings to mind for me… I remember the first time I was chastised for not being “manly enough.” My grandma worked at a church-run daycare center in Covington, Kentucky, just across the river from...

From Ashes, Pure Delight

From Ashes, Pure Delight

Mar 8, 2014

There’s something amazing about spending time with the people we love… Psalm 149 1   Praise the Lord! Sing to the Lord a new song, his praise in the assembly of the faithful. 2   Let Israel be glad in its Maker; let the children of Zion rejoice in their King. 3   Let them praise his name with dancing, making melody to him with tambourine and lyre. 4   For the...

Culling Brokenness

Culling Brokenness

Jan 4, 2014

We are all broken and wounded in this world. Some choose to grow strong at the broken places — Harold J. Duarte-Bernhardt   Blake (my therapist) has said a number of times that I have a tendency to go to a “dark place.” His concern has always been my going there and staying for too long. Sometimes I think he’s right. However, sometimes, we have to go to...

The Messiest Present

The Messiest Present

Dec 24, 2013

The incarnation is the complete refutation of every human system and institution that claims to control, possess, and distribute God. Whatever any church or religious leader may claim in regard to their particular access to God or control over your experience of God, the incarnation is the last word: God loves the world — Michael Spencer, Mere Churchianity...

Grieving Straightness

Grieving Straightness

Sep 23, 2013

For many, coming out is liberating… But it’s not always this way. Some people are outed. Some are found out. Some are forced to come out ahead of schedule. Some never come out at all, spending their lives living out the fantasy of what it would mean to be someone else, something else. When people ask me about my coming out story, I very often start with a...

Know and Be Known

Know and Be Known

Aug 16, 2013

“It is strange to be known so universally and yet to be so lonely – Albert Einstein It’s official. I’m finished with my first unit of CPE (clinical pastoral education… basically, chaplaincy). I spent 11 weeks at Rush University Medical Center on the near west side of Chicago working on the neuroscience floor in the hospitals newest building, the Tower. 40 hours...

Depression … and Life

Depression … and Life

Mar 25, 2013

Sometimes it just gets the better of you. Sometimes it’s debilitating, crippling. Other days it’s bearable, doable. Some days you’re able to go through your normal routine. Other times you have to drop what you’re doing, run to the nearest bathroom, closet, or dark corner, crouch down, breathe, and cry. Sometimes you clench your fists and grit your teeth....

Breath…

Breath…

Mar 12, 2013

Breath. It’s something most of us take for granted. In. Out. In. Out. The average human breathes between 18,000 and 30,000 times a day. Yet we don’t notice is most of the time. Air enters us. Air leaves us. It sustains us, and only when it’s absent do we notice just how necessary it is for sustaining life. My class on pneumatology (the study of the Holy Spirit)...

The Necessity of Change …

The  Necessity of Change …

Feb 27, 2013

Since entering seminary, my classmates and I have changed. Our views of self, God, Scripture, and the world in which we live are no longer the same as they were before. Additionally, that world, the one in which we live and are called to do ministry, is not the same. It too has changed, and in some respects, drastically so. Even if history is destined to repeat...

Love Better, Love More

Love Better, Love More

Dec 4, 2012

Yesterday, after spending most of my morning and afternoon working on one of my last papers for the semester, I asked my friend Abe over for dinner. A former seminarian, fellow contemplative, and previous classmate from college, I love spending time with him. We only recently reconnected, but even in such a short time, I’ve become incredibly grateful for our...